Sometimes we learn things the hard way.

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I'm a changed woman. 😁

The last eight months has been a series of pain and torture for me, emotionally. (Hmmm okay, that's a little bit exaggerated but I know you get the point.) Guess what, I was heart broken, I was dumped.

I was so depressed and was suffering in the first few months, I was crying myself to sleep. Pretending to everyone including myself that I'm okay.

I watched loooooot of videos and read a loooooot of books about moving on and heart aches. I was so desperate in taking away the pain that I'm feeling. I do a lot of stuff to distract myself but who am I fooling?

I decided to embrace the pain and get used to it. By embracing the pain, that's when I gain strength.

One day, I stumbled upon a Matthew Hussey video about core confidence and that changed everything.

"I am Ironman!"

I realized that when everything else fails, I will be okay because I know what I can offer. And I know that whenever I will fall down, I will tirelessly rise up again. I was reminded of that strength and braveness that I always have. I may be seen soft but I'm not weak.

My purpose when I went to Iloilo last month is to have a muni-muni moving on moment and to release everything that bothers me. And to my surprise, that town teaches me a lot of things.

"The best things in life are the simplest things"

For the first time in eight months, I was genuinely happy. All my worries went away. It was peaceful.

I can say that I'm thankful na nabrokenheart ako kasi I would have never explored more about myself if it never happened. I learned that it's okay to love someone but don't forget yourself. If you can't see your worth, they won't. :)

I will never chase anyone anymore. Never.